LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT

As I came to work this morning,first I was late and second the jam was not helping so I decided to just stare into nothingness and go with the flow, I mean besides I was already late and there was no god damn thing I could do about it. As the jam slowly eased on I started to wonder if any one could ever remember their first crush. Whether it was your neighbor who was like 2 years old and you were 3. At that moment it does not seem like a crush but you seem to want to spend more time with them.What do you call that? Rewind the clock and ask yourself, what if your first crush was the person you were meant to spend the rest of  your life with. That one moment of contact is the defining moment of eternity,  would you really want to actually spend the rest of your life with them? It is a grand feeling those 5 seconds of staring and analyzing, though it does not count for eternity. I have a problem with love at first sight, I don’t believe it exists.

How do you meet a person, less than half an hour later you are in love? Not in this world.No fucking way. Unless you are superhuman and you have already taken a journey through this other persons world and know everything about them. Get over yourself with this “love at first sight”. Yes I am old fashioned and I believe in getting to know a person. It does not happen in  a day and it takes time. After that in reciprocate I want to know what the other person is feeling because I would not want to waste my time getting to know a person who does not even come remotely close to what I feel.I mean there has to be a balance his/her believes and mine. It will be a waste of time and I believe its better to move on than waste your energy on something that is not gonna happen.

There are people who force themselves to  situations and circumstances that are clear as day that they will not have any headway. Fine, you think you something special with this person then you realize that it will not happen. Dust yourself up, pick up your pride and run because you will look desperate as if all men or women in the world just got sold out. Realize that you have far more potential than you give yourself credit for. People are dispensable and if it was not meant to be then shit it really was not meant to be. At what point does the brain come to register that? I don’t know but sometimes its good to get over some situations faster because they are not worth the effort. I don’t know whether this quote is true’ There is someone out there for everyone” but if it is then wait your turn. If you finally do meet someone who is on the same page as yourself then case closed.One happy person,100 Billion to go.

MY FIRST ATTEMPT

My first blog post and I feel so (what the word again it’s totally evaded me)

I had spotted him at a conference sometime back and he was the most gorgeous thing (for lack of a better word) I had ever seen. I was not sure what to do but it seemed that I could not stand there and just admire from afar God’s creation that was making my heart beat so fast. I stood thinking and plotting of the best way to approach him. I am not the type to sit, stare and plot on the next move or just come to the conclusion that I will wait for him or for any matter any guy make the first move.

What if he does not, maybe he is the one? I analyze all the angles because if I don’t then I will never know. On this particular day, I guess my balls had shrunk and I was feeling way out of my league with this one. “Here goes” I was whispering to myself. Every time I took a step forward I took ten backwards and he kept receding from my sight.

I sipped a glass of wine and the warming sensation almost made me run towards him and blubber like a fool. I had to stop myself because I knew I was about to make the biggest mistake of my life. Walking slowly towards him, I knew I was not turning back when I was a meter away from him. He had gorgeous eyes, I could see through them like glass. His lips, I cannot even describe... I mean I was in total awe of this man.

I was stuttering like a fool as I said my casual hi. It was like my words were stuck in my throat and I thought “this cannot be happening”. He did not seem embarrassed by this so I ignored it and moved on. He was Alvin (the sound of the L rolling around your tongue-moving on swiftly). My colleagues were staring and I knew that if I had not dared this stunt then this man would be the talk with my friends. I am not afraid to express how I feel and I did not care if Alvin was going to reject me or not, because there he was and he was absolutely gorgeous, so what was stopping me from hitting a decent conversation with him? Nothing except myself. We are constantly in touch however what I hoped for would transpire with him never did. I can’t be blamed for trying rather than have him as a topic of discussion and wishful thinking. I finally did meet someone along the line eventually. Alvin is still single as I found him and I wonder what makes such a gorgeous man single and unattached?